11:28 am - its been a while...

que pasa amigos?! it has surely been a while... i've been real busy with work and chilling, :p i've lost time for livejournal!

i guess i could say life is pretty good. besides the fact that i'm grounded this weekend :/ but i'll get to spend some quality time with myself, so that will be nice :) i'm gunna try and smoke/drink less... i never thought i would say this, but lately i've been feeling a little bit "out of my body"... :/ i think a little clear-headedness could be good for a little while. just enough so i can feel comfertable with myself... secure in myself. well i guess i'll have plenty of time to think this weekend :D

Current Mood: pensive

10:35 am - just be known in yourself.... good things will come (duplicate)

i'm not sure what i want to say... i just know i want to say what i'm feeling. i want to say something worthwhile... something that has a purpose... i want to leave this place with no regrets... i want to leave smiling...

At so many points in my life, i've wished i could write out my thoughts exactly... but i realize thats not possible. no one can translate their feelings into real words. The english-speaking language is just too small. i can only feel what i'm feeling right now... all i can do is be. and thats perfect.

only i can experiance my feelings. only you can experience yours. be known in your existance and know its good.

life... is your greatest gift
do what you want with it
and smile along the way...

peace

Current Mood: awake

10:33 am - don't live up to other people's expectations...

i'm sure i've probably said this a million times in one way or another, but i have come to realize that we are who we are. nothing can change that... not even us. we have to accept ourselves and other people as we are. love ourselves as we are... if there is something about yourself you don't like, only you have the power to change it however you wish... and its supposed to be hard, your fighting your instinkts. and in the end, you may have changed... but you know something is missing, its not you. love your entire self for all the posatives and negatives and goods and bads. take yourself as a whole and hug it. know you are perfect just as you are... and if some people don't accept it, then theire not even worth it. always know you have people who got your back and will love you for you... all the time.

Current Mood: awake

01:21 pm

hugs and kisses to all! :)

Current Mood: pensive

01:15 pm - its been a while...

wow, it has been a loooong time since i have been on lj.

school is so boring. i can't wait for summer and bonaroo! :)

halley's birthday is this weekend. yay! big 18 and the weekend after that me, halley, christina, and emily are going to my mom's cabin in Eliay. i'm so excited! fun fun for everyone

alrighty, well i hope all of you have a swell wednesday afternoon! HAKUNA MATATA

Current Mood: bored

10:01 am

Lauren Handman
Economics H*
1st Period
1/11/06

Glitter Hair Dye


The product we decided on producing is Glitter Hair Dye. The dye would be produced in factories and testing units. It’s for people who want to try new things and like glitter and dying their hair.
For the three factors of production, we will need enough land for the factory and testing units to be created on, workers and hair specialists for labor, and glitter, water, and plastic for capital production.
The Glitter Hair Dye is a good, meaning that it is used to satisfy the wants and needs of others. Our product’s utility is that it makes one’s hair a different style. (more specifically; glittery) The amount we are charging for the dye is $7.95.

07:24 pm - life...

life is mighty interesting. it can push you up past the clouds and bring you down to the ground in a split second. i guess thats the lesson we all have to learn... its not fair, so make the best of the situation and move on, try and just brush it off your shoulders, smile and breathe. your not worth feeling icky... its never a good feeling. live life and just do the best you can and make sure, if you havent heard a word i just said, remember this: smile along the was :) muah! peace

Current Mood: content

11:55 pm - friends

i'm absolutely speachless...

i don't even know where to begin...

the only thing i can put into words at the moment is, "i love you all so friggin much!" its truly rediculous. after my suprise gathering yesturday and looking through my presents a little while ago, i just feel so lucky and greatful to have such wonderful people in my life. it kinda feels like i don't have enough room for all this joy... WHAT DO I DO WITH IT ALL?! its overwhelming and wonderful and i just can't stop smiling. i love you all so much (you know who you are) and i can't imagine life without you.

Thankyou so much halley, katherine, rose, emily, kelin, eliot, will, trevor, matt, rachael, isaac, chris, and christina for a lovely birthday :) i love you all so much

and if bobby, anna, and stacy read this, you were greatly missed and love you guys too :)

i send a billion hugs and kisses to all

xoxoxoxo

peace

Current Mood: calm

02:50 pm - happy days

reverse schedual today: interesting, new, better, worse, good day so far.

I'M GETTING MY WINDOW TODAY! YIPPIDY SKIPPIDY!

i can't believe its finally here. its gunna be weird, having a window in my car... but o so cool :)

it doesn't feel like my birthday is coming soon at all... and its in 2 days! i don't feel 18 or ready to be 18 for that matter. i hope i get more privaleges... knowing my parents, i probably won't get any right away anyway... it will come in time though.

i love it when everyone is happy and loving and hugging and cuddly and together like one big happy family. whenever i feel so happy and greatful and like nothing can bring me down, i start to feel kinda bad in the back of my mind for all the people who are sad and unhappy. i just want to give them a hug and see them smile. i sware, seeing people smile and laugh is like the best thing in the world... i feel so overwhelmed with love and joy, i don't know what to do with ir all!

i love you all, and thankyou for being you :)

Current Mood: bouncy

10:04 am

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6
Mind:	5.2
Body:	6.4
Spirit:	6.8
Friends/Family:	6.3
Love:	2.1
Finance:	3.4
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Current Mood: bored

10:02 am

You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational. </td> Cultural Creative 69% Romanticist 56% Idealist 50% Postmodernist 38% Existentialist 25% Fundamentalist 25% Modernist 19% Materialist 19% What is Your World View? (updated) created with QuizFarm.com

Current Mood: sleepy

06:52 am

You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie. </td> Mermaid 67% Faerie 67% Angel 59% WereWolf 25% Dragon 25% Demon 0% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!) created with QuizFarm.com

10:45 pm - yay for healthyness!

wow, the week of hell is past me :) yay!

today has been mighty fine. first, i wake up feeling great... my sickness is gone and now i'm just left with a slight caugh. katherine and i went to go visit north ga college which was pretty borring, but informative. and we got to spend a little time together :)

when we got back i got my car! finally! so we went to the nature preserve and met up with halley, rose, and eliot :) so good to see thoes people and be at the NP. (our happy place :)

then later halley and i got to spend a couple hours together on her front porch eating tortalinies and drinking tea :)

and this weekend hopefully we're all gunna go camping! yay for nature!

Current Mood: good

04:09 pm - if your bord....

BOLD WHAT YOU HAVE DONE...

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.

Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.(with incence cuz i was bord)

Ran a marathon.
Lost your virginity.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter. (probably..)
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.

Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn't do.
Stolen books from the library.
Dropped out of school.
Been Gone to a different country.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the "Harry Potter" movies.

Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn't have. (???? i dunno... love isn;t the right word, and it was for like 2 months)
Wondered about your sexuality.

Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.(alcohol poisining though).... (maybe, i dunno)
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.

Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did "spirit day" at school.
Dyed your hair.

Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A's.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.

Had a party while your parents weren't home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone

Done surveys like this to pass the time.

03:58 pm - home sick....

... and feeling crappy.

man i hate being sick. you know when your at school and you wanna be anyplace but there and sometimes you wish you were sick, but o my god its so not worth it! i hate this feeling and i want it to go away. i really wanna drive this weekend too.

well, i don't have much more to say, and i'm feeling icky, so i'm gunna go lay down.

Current Mood: sick

10:54 pm - am i gunna make it through

???? my mind is filled with question marks

my feelings are scrambled and yet clear...
i sit here going through my life...
not sure what path to take next...

i feel... lost. confused and yet clear

i don't know what i want, and i do at the same time

___________

At this point in my life
I've done so many things wrong, I don't know if I can do right
Although I've mostly walked in the shadows
I'm still searching for the light
You see when I've touched the sky
The earth's gravity has pulled me down
But now I've reconciled that in this world
Birds and angels get the wings to fly
At this point in my life...

____________

i just want to live my life the way i want to without hurting anyone

i don't know what i feel. but its not what i want to be feeling

Current Mood: uncomfortable

11:02 pm - please find me...

... waiting for something, not knowing quite what, i just want to feel content. thats definately my favorite feeling... no worries, just being me in myself right now, its perfect. why can't i feel like that right now...

whats something that always makes me feel better no matter what?

maybe its good not to feel good all the time. its important to feel sad and scared and mad and guilty sometimes...

i just hope it goes away soon. i guess all i can do is feel...

Current Mood: drained

10:57 pm

LJ Interests meme results

1. cafe istambul:
   my favorite restaurant, next to anything with chineese food. love them hukas ;)
2. cruzin:
   awsome memmories when i first started driving, (cruzin with halley to A & W)
3. everclear:
   awsome band, i love love love them, gives you happy and sad at the same time
4. green:
   THE BEST COLOR EVER!
5. jimmi hendricks:
   one of my top 5 idles... hes amazing
6. music:
   ...i would die with out it. one of my favorite things
7. papa roach:
   wonderful memmories of 10th grade at my dad's old appartment ;)
8. running:
   something i used to love alot and something i need to do more of now
9. tacy chapman:
   one of my other top idles, she is indescribable
10. third eye blind:
    great band, when your just happy and wanna shout it

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

Current Mood: distressed

11:31 am

senior investure..... blah. i hate dressing up, i don't have ANY nice clothes. so i guess my casual skirt will have to do. i can't wait till friday, i'm hoping i can have the car all night cuz i need to get my emmisions and tags, so we'll see....

my dad is leaving this afternoon and he spacifically told me not to have nayone over at the house. oh well, hopefully nothing will get out oh hand. well, winterscheidt calls, have lovrly thursday everyone.

Current Mood: bored

09:46 am - i hate school

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Current Mood: blah